Archive for the ‘Connection’ category


July 31, 2014


★★••My friend••★★
After I wrote about Valuing Value yesterday, my thoughtful friend Marlene posted a comment. She is one of my rare friends who appreciates words. In her comment, she said “absolutely amazing words, this is one of my top five posts of yours and believe me I love a lot of them. :) Made me cry!! I value your friendship and your wisdom, my lovely friend, but most of all I value the beauty of you and the impact you have made in my life. Thank you for your awesomeness!!” I forgot to tell her that I also cried when I wrote the piece.

I cried because it was a very emotional day for me. I even called in an hour late after I left the gym because I was feeling so many different emotions and I needed time to become human again. It is this type of connection that I crave from those people I love. Marlene is amazing. She didn’t know where my words came from, still…she understood them and responded. I love her for that. She took it a step further and texted me this morning asking that I check her web site. I was in a meeting, but left the room to read what she wrote when I realized it was about me.

It was so touching and I appreciate her bringing me up when I feel down. That’s what friends are for. Thank you Mar. You can read what she wrote about me here…

Valuing Felish
Published by Mar on July 30, 2014

♦*Valuing Value*♦

July 30, 2014


“When someone can make you see
this broken world as beautiful, they
are worth keeping around.”

~~~~~• Author Unknown

Have you ever contemplated the word value? It is an intricate word to contemplate. What does it mean to value things? More importantly, what does it mean to value people? We are all worth something? Aren’t we? I like to think my worth outweighs my worthlessness, but maybe other people don’t see it that way. Maybe people who don’t know me could just ignore my value, write me off, plead ignorance to my worth, but what about those who know me? What about those who you hoped would care?

The dictionary defines value (the noun) as “high quality” the “importance” of “something intrinsically valuable or desirable.” It is always disappointing when you realize that some people see you as a metaphorical rock instead of as a diamond. No matter how much value you could ever allot yourself, not everyone can see the return on an investment in you. Maybe it’s that they can’t conceive or refuse to acknowledge your worth? Maybe they simply can’t do it? Maybe in this case, value (the noun) isn’t as important to me as value (the verb)?

Value as a verb is much more complex. It isn’t just the physicality of worth, but what lies beneath our skin. It is what’s in the mind and in the heart. In this form of the word, value is the description of an action, state, or occurrence. The dictionary defines this type of value as the consideration of “someone or something to be important or beneficial” and to “have a high opinion of” that someone or something. Synonymously, one would “think highly of, hold in high regard, rate highly, appreciate, treasure, prize, and respect” someone or something they valued.

Seriously…have you ever contemplated the word value? The intricacy of this word continues to blow my mind. It is important to me. We can choose to value or choose not to value things. If valuing something…if valuing someone means you have to validate them are you ok with that? If it is something or someone you really care about, it is never a problem. I value things. I value people. If I declare your value, you will know. I do my best to nurture those things which are dear to me.

We are all worth something. I am worth something. Unfortunately, we may be worth more to some than others no matter what we do…still, I declare that my worth outweighs my worthlessness. I am worthy of love and the exploration of feelings. Yes…I am. I am special and deserve respect. I take work, but in the end, I am worth that work. I want to be cared for because I am not valueless.

Ain’t that a Biaaa deGrasse?

July 29, 2014

Tonight’s digital composite is a special self portrait. The composite features: the colorless ghost of me; a special algorithm; a black hole; and a special awakening quote by the man I love…Neil deGrasse Tyson. Astrophysicists touch heaven! Nothing special.


***Digital composite by Felicia***

Match Made in Heaven

July 29, 2014

Harley Quinn & Deadpool


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July 28, 2014

It is so nice to have thoughtful people in my life. There is nothing like thoughtfulness. It is always appreciated. This afternoon I joked about how I would fill the awesome Marilyn flask with Redline instead of liquor cause I’m gym crushed like that! Gotta love my custom made Harley Quinn card and a “Decomposition Book” for “Felicia” the writer. A big thank you for my lil treasures.


Transcending Love

July 27, 2014


**Digital composite by Felicia**
This evening I watched the Sci-Fi Fantasy/Thriller Transcendence. The critics were hard on this one, but it was hard for me not to like Johnny Depp and Rebecca Hall as Will and Evelyn Caster. Yes…it was another tragic story about the connection and disconnection of lovers. The sunflower was the symbol of this.

This one was different because neural networks, binary, smart people, science and technology, and deep love were at the heart of the story. It is a long movie, but worth a watch if you like technology, smart people, and sad love stories. The best movie quote was the closing line. It basically summed up the movie.

“He created this garden for
the same reason he created
everything else…to be with her.”

~~Paul Bettany
as Max Waters in

Artemisia & Themistocles on Tumblr

July 25, 2014

Check out the Tumblr tags with lovely images staring Artemisia & Themistocles. I could check that page out all night! ♥ Time for a bath!

In Love with The Punisher

July 25, 2014


The Side

July 22, 2014


On the side she did
remain for the front
is a crowded place.
A type of girl that
shan’t be pegged
unless she’s
strewn in lace.
Breathe brightest
white. Vision is tazed
by a blurring fantasy.
The side of this and
the side of that is
under lock and key.

by Felicia Lujan


July 21, 2014


A puzzle piece.
Complicated to the core.
Never to solve.
Tangle it up some more.
So multi-part.
Difficult…it’s plain to see.
Explore each piece.
Every puzzle has a key.

by Felicia Lujan

The Four of Us Are Dying

July 21, 2014

Absolutely love this song. No words needed…Nine Inch Nails just know that “The Four of Us Are Dying.” This is an instrumental off The Slip album. Awesome to workout to!!


Tree of Dreams

July 19, 2014


On each leaf…through 10,000 lifetimes and thousands of worlds, she searched for his face~ scouring every branch on the tree of dreams.
by Felicia Lujan

The Tragedy of Carmen

July 19, 2014


Last night I went to the Santa Fe Opera. After a tail gate dinner, we watched the tragic love story Carmen. The opera is said to be one of the most performed operas by the French composer Georges Bizet. There were four acts with an intermission in between and the show started at 8:30pm with the ending close to midnight. In the end, Carmen the gypsy meets with death.


The libretto for this opera was based on a novella and was written by Henri Meilhac and Ludovic Halévy. Carmen was first performed at the Opéra-Comique in Paris in 1875. Sadly, Bizet died before his tragic opera saw success. Carmen is a story about the powers and poisons of seduction and love. It was a beautiful evening. The outdoor opera house reminded me of how lovely my city is at night.

***Side note…I went to see this opera with my division director/deputy administrator, but coincidentally, my former division director who is also my former administrator was also there to see the show. Haha…small world!



Na…Na…Man…That shizz is fire!

July 16, 2014

This jam is absolute fire! I have been feeling this song, but I like it even more now that I have the video on my pod. This may be the best music video I have seen in a while. The imagery is hot •• Hot •• HOT! Let me clarify that…super *H•O•T*!! Though…it’s to bad the video lyrics don’t follow the “dirty version.”

I do love me some sweaty peeps working out! When Trey Songz’s woman comes back in the end of the video in camo shorts to train him…it is awesome!!! Love that final scene!! Gotta love Trigga Trey~ bringing that fire back. They were actually working out in the video, but I wish Trey would have actually benched 225 for at least 15 reps. Sad face. Haha!!

Come Clean

July 15, 2014

Here is my newest digital composite. There are seven layers in this piece. Click on the image to enlarge it. I guess it’s a rather big bathtub to wash up in eh?
Come Clean by Felicia Lujan


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