Sandalwood

sacred, sweet
a fleeting dream
pure heartwood
brushed my lips

center of time
Earthly beings
scent lingers on
numb fingertips

rare ritual
begin to fly
into chasms
of your deep

aromatic quality
one piece of life
the scent is
yours to keep

priceless smell
fever distilled
sandalwood lofts
into my soul

alpha-santalol
heartwood bleeds
fragrant oil
takes a toll

Felicia Lujan
8.20.2022

Watch “In Memory of Stephanie” on YouTube

•Artistic memory of Stephanie gifted to me by her family•

☆☆☆☆☆

Close to three years ago, I captured this footage of a book I handcrafted in memory of an amazing woman for a family who loved her very much and lost her much to soon. She was a good, kind creative, and very beautiful woman who loved nature and animals. She had a good heart. Making this gave me an opportunity to learn more about a woman who embodied so many wonderful things throughout her life. She truly made a difference while she was on this Earth she respected. It was an honor to gift her family with a mini archive in her memory.

Karmic Koffee

“Karma is experience, and experience creates memory, and memory creates imagination and desire, and desire creates karma again. If I buy a cup of coffee, that’s karma. I now have that memory that might give me the potential desire for having cappuccino, and I walk into Starbucks, and there’s karma all over again.”
☆Deepak Chopra

—The complexity of my mind equally matches the complexity of my coffee. Deepak is aware of the symbolic ingredients which can inspire a true master piece.—

Miasma

The idea for this poem was originally drafted as a placeholder within WordPress in 2018, inspired by a SciShow episode. The episode was titled “5 Things Humans Got Really Wrong About Our Bodies.” That night, I drafted the idea to write a poem when I learned about Miasma theory. This is an aged medical theory about air… or “bad air” if you will. Also known as “night air,” Miasma theorists concluded breathing it could lead to the Black Death and other diseases. Tonight… I followed through on the idea and crafted a poem.

noxious fumes
of bad air drift
pushing past
the barrier

real love
floats
false friendship
sinks
into a ghost
of what you were

miasmal dream
a ghastly sight
straight poisonous
and untold

history was made
it’s there to keep
know the night air
will be cold

noxious fumes
of bad air drift
pushing past
the barrier

real love
floats
false friendship
sinks
into a ghost
of what you were

by Felicia Lujan
10.8.19

That Awkward Moment

At work, I’m one woman amongst a team of all male directors. A few months ago, one of them sent me this meme. I thought it was hilarious and loved it. I guess that’s how he sees me. Often close to reality this seems. It’s that awkward moment! Glad some think that’s bad ass! I have this on my fridge.

born of ash

swept by fire
rightly in womb
from cradle
to the grave

spin with heat
core buring hot
with every breath
to save

she’s born of ash
strengh from flame
rising Phoenix
fly for sky

clouds to Earth
and Earth to clouds
each flight has
made her wise

swept by fire
rightly in womb
built to kill
to the crave

spin with heat
core buring up
lit with every
breath to save

by Felicia Lujan
9.29.19

Watch “Animal Motivation | OVERCOME | Rob Hall” on YouTube

When High Protein is a Must

☆Marcus’s “Mandrill Cake”☆

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Not long ago we went to a dinner party with some gym peeps at Theo’s house. It was a nice evening. We were able to explore his museum-like decor with artifacts and professional photographs reflective of his travels, however, Marcus’s “Mandrill Cake” won the spotlight that evening. It was a creative spin on a decorative, high-protein cake to honor our gym and I loved that idea! Of course I took this custom muscle recipe straight to Martin, the owner of Mandrill’s ’cause it was so coo’!

Watch “Your Muscles Do Remember… But Not The Way You Think” on YouTube

Iced Memz

I’ll take it stiff
just on the rocks
frozen solid
still on ice

pour me a glass
of shivery dreams
in a steam swept
artic paradise

frost-bound love
glacier of souls
drifting quickly
off to sea

iced memories bleed
droplets of snow
in the complexity
of we

by Felicia Lujan
9.16.2019

puzzling

fit just right
to break apart
tongues tied
with sultry
breath

fit my body
fit my mind
prefectly
right fast to
the death

touch each
piece not in
waking dreams
but right here
tainted flesh

fitting in
and
fitting out
just lovely
to enmesh

each curve
so sleek
contour unique
a mold around
your lips

marking our
lines a
puzzling map
down to aching
weighted hips

by Felicia Lujan
8.25.19

Strength

♡this

“I don’t really want to become normal, average, standard. I want merely to gain in strength, in the courage to live out my life more fully, enjoy more, experience more. I want to develop even more original and more unconventional traits.”

•Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934

SF-NM Women Killin’ It

Recent gifts for two strong New Mexico women whom were competing in other states out of Santa Fe, NM! Susan and Renee. I love crafting and I love these bottles and I found a perfect card! Acknowledging other people matters! That’s why I gave gifts to inspiring women in support of what we all love! Lifting weights! I do know that one went pro! Cheers to strong women!

This Red Devil Tho

Renee Bartlett lookin’ hella fire for the 2019 NPC Mid USA Championships in Albuquerque yesterday. I love to see these ladies killing it!

Watch “Jessica Celebrates 10 years” on YouTube

So proud of my cousin Jessica for making such a difference with Tewa Women United for a decade. My cousin is a doula and it was an honor to see women from various backgrounds at this event becoming doulas as well. Jessica is a special woman and it’s wonderful to see a woman with Lujan roots making a difference in our community.