born of ash

swept by fire
rightly in womb
from cradle
to the grave

spin with heat
core buring hot
with every breath
to save

she’s born of ash
strengh from flame
rising Phoenix
fly for sky

clouds to Earth
and Earth to clouds
each flight has
made her wise

swept by fire
rightly in womb
built to kill
to the crave

spin with heat
core buring up
lit with every
breath to save

by Felicia Lujan
9.29.19

Watch “The Drakon” on YouTube

Loving the red eyed Drakon that Alicia gifted me with just because! I do love that woman. I had to test a few types of incense and found sum shhhhmokey stuff for my poison spitting Drakon. Now that’s fire!

Swim, Swag and Smoke

♡ 2 pool pics and 2 pics with my Converse kicks- sugar skull, and red n black All Stars… those patent leather and metallic gold Air Jordans tho… silver metallic Nike pants… and a sequence lip tank by Guess♡

A bit back, there was a weekend spent in ABQ. My road lead up there to get some swim and swag on. The trip was seriously my only getaway this summer.

There was no benefit in starting the trip at Rudy’s. The fire was way hot in there this time. I didn’t feel well after that. I know Cormac McCarthy said “keep a little fire burning; however small, however hidden,” but the smoke from the next room was burning my eyes.

Unfortunately, it didn’t turn out to be that restful of a trip after all. I did score some sweet gym swag and that’s what matters anyhow right?

Fiery Bliss

an endless flame

it burns within

a stinging singe

of pure, sweet bliss

by Felicia Lujan

3.26.2018

Fire Pit Party

This was the 1st night we got to break out our fire pit from Gail and Jerry. I love this thing! I didn’t put it on the floor though. We hosted an outdoor fight party in June when Andre Ward and Sergey Kovalev threw down.

Burn

the spark
a flame
bright light
you’re name

my pulse
your ache
no light
insane

run hot
black veins
enflamed
with stains

in fire
hearts burn
white light
love pain
🔥
by Felicia Lujan
4.26.2017

Transform It

That Face

☆• That face when I’m ready to burn the house down on chest day. I love Saturdays!! This was a pic from the Saturday after Black Friday. I scored new, black and gray studios on Black Friday, which I needed. I threw my black widow necklace on and some temp red in my hair for that fire to burn it down! •☆

Setting Wishes Afire

I put Carmen’s flying wish paper to use with the girls. This was one of her birthday gifts for me. What an amazing creation!! Together we prepared our platforms and an undisclosed wish. One by one, we set them afire and watched as they magically floated away.

“May Light always surround you; Hope kindle and rebound you. May your Hurts turn to Healing; Your Heart embrace Feeling. May Wounds become Wisdom; Every Kindness a Prism. May Laughter infect you; Your Passion resurrect you. May Goodness inspire your Deepest Desires. Through all that you Reach For, May your arms Never Tire.”

▪♡▪D. Simone

Keeper of Fragile Things

“What you burnt,
broke, and tore is
still in my hands.
I am the keeper
of fragile things
and I have kept
of you what is
indissoluble.”

~~~•| Anaïs Nin

Bones

Spec “Bones,” my new site theme and gravatar. D told me it was scary, but I think it suits me perfectly.

Tiger Eye: Heart and Strength

••Thank you lady••

Once in a while, my bright lights dim. It is a rare occasion, but I’m human. I’ve learned to bend and not break. It takes inner strength to reignite my fiery light, but having genuine people in my life helps. My friend bought me a strength/balance tiger eye stone from our favorite bookstore. She’s very thoughtful and reminded me that her gift matched my new tattoo.

The stone will assist with releasing energies from my 3rd chakra, which I need. This chakra is located near the navel and solar plexus. The solar plexus or manipura is referred to as the “lustrous gem.” It travels up the breastbone. The 3rd chakra is the source of personal power, warrior energy, and governs personal transformation.

Strength

Strength fractures for few
and falls away to no place.
When strength dies for you,
appreciate that moment
of weakness. My moment
keeps you pliable and human.
That fissure keeps you loved
and human even though you,
not I, deserve to break.

by Felicia Lujan
3.17.2016

••Richard Vargas (owner of Evil Emporium) reinking my wizardly magic. Looking at the number of Instagram likes on some of his recent pieces, my tat is up there!••

Check out my piece on Instagram and give it a👍

••Finished... with an affirmation of "strength" to fight weakness.••

2016: The Fire~ Part 2

So what happend to me that’s worth mentioning during my last 8 days of 2015 and my first 6 days of 2016? I am always so thankful for the gym because a couple of days before Christmas, I had two very hard days. I actually went back to my natural eye color (ditched green) and contemplated dying my hair pitch black. I can’t afford to have my emotions get the best of me when what really deserves to get the best of me is the iron. So what did I do? I used the energy that I discovered was being wasted to make gains.

••On December 24, 2015... My Christmas gift from Amanda made its first appearance in Mandrill's Gym.••

On December 24th, I was extremely enraged in the gym. My heart was filled with fire and I could feel the flames scorching my eyes. That afternoon, Yolanda randomly asked me if I was mad at her. I wasn’t mad at her. People frequently think I’m mad at them in the gym, but I’m usually not mad at all. Call it driven. Call it serious. That particular day…call it fury or enflamed. After I killed squats, I reassured Yolanda that my fire had nothing to do with her. I literally couldn’t walk after that squat session until at least the 28th.

••On one of the last days of 2015, I made some fake "shake and bake" with whole almond meal. It was healthy, organic and delish!••

On Christmas Day, I almost stayed in bed. I figured maybe I should… I didn’t feel good after all. Thank God for my challenging nephew. He had slept over and was shocked to hear about the potential rest day. He was like “Ooooo… I thought you were hard core?” He made so much noise about the potential rest day that I changed my mind and hit it up. Yes… on Christmas Day!! Like I said… Thank God for my challenging nephew who kept my ass in check that day. I went in and straight murdered my shoulders and TRAPS while everyone else’s kept shrinking.

••Been loving my new Oso Elite Collars. Since I've been on fire, I thought about ordering red ones that were custom engraved with "she devil," but went with purple (which I know some people HATE) and my name.••

For years I’ve been able to bench a plate on the Smith. It’s been at least a year since I cut the Smith completely out of my workouts with the exception of standing calve raises. Being enflamed helped me get a 35 free weight for a strong 12 reps and a plate for a strong 6 reps. The owner of my gym is there working from like 6:00am until like 9:00pm, so I questioned him about female strength. I wanted to know how many woman he’s seen bench a plate. Looks like there are four of of us and most of them can only get it for 3… so…

••Ohhhhh.... Yeah... Now that's what I'm talking 'bout. Wish I had a good pic of me wearing my long Deadpool socks. I guess red will be my color in 2016. #fire••

On the second day of the new year, it was Deadpool and deadlifts. I’m inching closer to a 205 deadlift. I scored an awesome Deadpool outfit and I deadlifted 185 for 6 reps. My goal for the first quarter of 2016 is to lockout 205 for 3. I have a strong back and I want to continue to develop my strength. Before Christmas, I was struggling, but pulling the whole stack for facepulls. The fire helped me pull the stack (200 lbs) like nothing. I hit that shit for reps of 15 easily.

••It's Deadpool Bitchez!! He's a lifelong member of the NRA (Never Real Anyway).••

I guarantee that 2016 will see a side of me that has never been completely revealed. I will fan the flames, feed the rage, engage the heat, and welcome the smoke. Fire is a precious thing. Lesson of 2015… Fire should always be used to burn those things which are worthy of your time and energy. Or… If you feel so inclined, as firefighters do, it may suit you better to pour a big ass bucket of water on your fire and simply put that shit out. It is easier for those who are scared to get burned, but not me, I breathe fire bitchez.

2016: The Fire~ Part 1

2016
Resolution
Promise
GUARANTEE
#FIRE
Personal
Professional
Physical

••Digital composite by Felicia Lujan~ includes a photograph of me and 16 layers.••